The entire ride back, there one thing that really started to nag at him. It wasn't the blood, it wasn't the kiss, it wasn't even Charlie's words specifically. It was the simple fact that Billy had misread everything. First the fact that Mike had that cold, twisted side, and the fact that Billy had assumed to that to be the "real" Mike. The fact that he had been genuinely terrified of the guy. Billy had faced mobsters and drug kings and all manner of awful and terrifying people. He'd been held captive by the enemy and didn't even know if his team could get there in time. And still he hadn't been afraid. Not like he'd been when Mike asked if he was going to run.
In forcing himself to look at it that way, look at himself, he was able to see it. See that it wasn't just that he was opening up to this strange family. See why it was so very hard to put the lid back on the box he kept his heart in, and why this had all hit him so hard. This had happened once before. Only instead of an ex-Quantico second in command, it had been a Harvard-bound boss's daughter. It wasn't an easy realization to come to or to handle. But now he knew what he was dealing with.
Billy was glad to find Mike alone in the house. He moved into the room, hands in his pockets, taking it all in. The map, the reports, even the TV. But for once, his mind wasn't on the job.
"Hey..." He said, softly.
With Charlie's words ringing in his head, he acted. He moved to the couch and in one move plucked the pen from Mike's lips and sat beside him. His fingers went into the other's hair and pulled him close for the kiss he'd refused last night.
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Date: 2015-07-21 08:59 pm (UTC)In forcing himself to look at it that way, look at himself, he was able to see it. See that it wasn't just that he was opening up to this strange family. See why it was so very hard to put the lid back on the box he kept his heart in, and why this had all hit him so hard. This had happened once before. Only instead of an ex-Quantico second in command, it had been a Harvard-bound boss's daughter. It wasn't an easy realization to come to or to handle. But now he knew what he was dealing with.
Billy was glad to find Mike alone in the house. He moved into the room, hands in his pockets, taking it all in. The map, the reports, even the TV. But for once, his mind wasn't on the job.
"Hey..." He said, softly.
With Charlie's words ringing in his head, he acted. He moved to the couch and in one move plucked the pen from Mike's lips and sat beside him. His fingers went into the other's hair and pulled him close for the kiss he'd refused last night.