Selfish, selfish selfish. Mike pulls back, trying to look for something. Trying to find some sort of mutual reciprocation, but all he sees is Billy. Billy looking worried. Billy looking almost afraid of him.
Mike's at a position he doesn't care to be in--he wants to help Billy, but he's not sure he can. He's the source of all that's bothering him, isn't he? And yet all Mike wants to do is talk to the other, quiet and reassuring. It doesn't tale him long to put his own shit behind, to turn it off--to have that section of him retreat.
..Is he so selfish, though, that he's doing this to make himself feel better? Or because he's genuinely worried about Billy? He's not even sure himself, even though Mike desperately wishes it's the latter. That's when he catches it--that brief look of fear on the other's face.
Billy's scared of him.
Fuck.
"I'm sorry--that was uncalled for," He manages. Offers the flightiest of smiles, and puts a hand on his shoulder. He wants to touch Billy, to remind him that it's alright. To be there for him. "You're hurting, and.. I want to do something to make it stop."
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Selfish, selfish selfish. Mike pulls back, trying to look for something. Trying to find some sort of mutual reciprocation, but all he sees is Billy. Billy looking worried. Billy looking almost afraid of him.
Mike's at a position he doesn't care to be in--he wants to help Billy, but he's not sure he can. He's the source of all that's bothering him, isn't he? And yet all Mike wants to do is talk to the other, quiet and reassuring. It doesn't tale him long to put his own shit behind, to turn it off--to have that section of him retreat.
..Is he so selfish, though, that he's doing this to make himself feel better? Or because he's genuinely worried about Billy? He's not even sure himself, even though Mike desperately wishes it's the latter. That's when he catches it--that brief look of fear on the other's face.
Billy's scared of him.
Fuck.
"I'm sorry--that was uncalled for," He manages. Offers the flightiest of smiles, and puts a hand on his shoulder. He wants to touch Billy, to remind him that it's alright. To be there for him. "You're hurting, and.. I want to do something to make it stop."