"Just...." He made a waving finger with his hands. "Turn off the part of you that thinks it's wrong. And it gets easier, and easier, and easier.."
Billy was understanding it. Most of it. Mike is halfway through his beer, looking at the moon. Looking at anything but Billy right now. "I'm not sure how to really say this, but having you help out... Part of me knows it was necessary. It's logical, it's planning, it's what anyone else would do. The other part, you're like this eager-eyed kid who wanted to be a cop and saw too much. Started on your way to turning into a really ugly son of a bitch." Into him. He doesn't say that, only shoots the other a slightly nervous smile, eyes watery in the dark.
"I shouldn't have made you do that. Shown you that. I shouldn't have twisted you to make it easier to shut that part of your brain off. I think... I think we need you because of that little switch. Because we're all so fucked up--I'm having problems telling right from wrong and I had no idea I was until today."
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Date: 2015-07-20 10:54 am (UTC)Billy was understanding it. Most of it. Mike is halfway through his beer, looking at the moon. Looking at anything but Billy right now. "I'm not sure how to really say this, but having you help out... Part of me knows it was necessary. It's logical, it's planning, it's what anyone else would do. The other part, you're like this eager-eyed kid who wanted to be a cop and saw too much. Started on your way to turning into a really ugly son of a bitch." Into him. He doesn't say that, only shoots the other a slightly nervous smile, eyes watery in the dark.
"I shouldn't have made you do that. Shown you that. I shouldn't have twisted you to make it easier to shut that part of your brain off. I think... I think we need you because of that little switch. Because we're all so fucked up--I'm having problems telling right from wrong and I had no idea I was until today."